sk8withsanta

I CANNOT WAIT TIL SUMMER

2008-04-20T22:44:29Z

"turn yore music down my ears are burning!" ---Angie

"You make mefeel like a fuckin pirate!.....Stop quoting me!!!!" ----Anige

"Zoe'a going crazy...its the sign of the apacalipse!" -----Angie

"Qoute yourself....quote your fucking self!" -----Angie

"Don't look at me you fuckin diabetis in a tube!" ----Angie

"Barbarians!!??" Savages if u will!!" -----Angie

"I think of Gallager in the barn slitting the horses throats!" ----Angie

"I want you to teleport yourself here?" ----Angie

AHHHHH we g2g g

ANGIE AND DUNN

sooo high. so high that day. 3 years ago already. wowww. and i totally remember this too. case and point of why i have an lj. if this sight ever stops and i lose my entries i'm going to be furious.

can i just say again that I CANT WAIT TIL SUMMER.

its so nice outside right now. and there are people flooding the back yard of my dorm. people grilling out, smoking hookahs on picnic tables, playing sand volleyball...i literally think that it is the perfect college scene. and i just got a call from megan asking if i wanted to go outside and play some catch. ahhh so nice to be able to do that.

25 days til i'm out tho. summer is at my fingertips. bare feet bare feet bare feet. i remember always going over to angies and not wearing shoes cuz it was so close and we would just sit outside anyway. i cant wait to do that again. its been so long. having angie back in the dirty is my dream. the only thing thats gonna make this summer suck is not having a doggie to walk when i'm alone and its nice outside. :( that i will really miss for sure. i remember when toni had me on lock downs and i would take zoe and walk her as an excuse to get out and then go over to angies so we could hang out.

25 effin dayz.

p.s. happy 4/20 hoez.

....prooooolllllyyyyy.

2008-04-10T23:42:00Z

lemme tell you how good i did on that geo exam!!

mmmm. only good thing is the weekend is pretty much here now.
the weather is so shitty tonight tho and all i wanna do is go out and drink but on account of the rain i will prolly stay home and mope around while i should/could be doing homework and other productive things.

ohhh boy do i love college sometimes...

excepttttt that i get to go see jerry on monday and i am soooo pumped!

all i want right now is some chinese food. yum.

i'd be lying through my teeth if i told you that i'm okay.

2008-03-10T21:33:22Z

whattttt the fuckkkkkk.

why why why is college so gay.

i have 2 midterms tomorrow, and one on thursday.

good thing that one of them is 40% of my grade and one is 35%...the other one, i dont even know. coooooool.

mmhm prolly dont have to do good on these either otherwise my life is overrrr.

so far i've gotten a 60 and a 64 on my midterms. prolly not discouraging at alllllll.

grr. i'm stressed a little bit if u cant tell. i cant cant cant wait until this week is over. spring break is going to be the highlight of my life, then i'm home free with school until finals as far as exams are concerned....i think.

omg i'm gonna be such a booze hound next week and i cant even wait. how sick.

i wish that i could just be a witch and magically ace all of my tests. that would just be...great.

<dunnmasta.I.HOPE.I'M.STILL.ALIVE.ON.THURSDAY.NIGHT.stank

sk8withsanta @ 2007-12-21T17:55:00

2007-12-22T00:15:20Z

my first (and only) ex-boyfriend....

is getting MARRIED tomorrow.

ha. this is gonna be fun.

dont worry there will be PLENTY more where this came from.

ok so i meant to post that like last week but when i came on to do this one it asked me if i wanted to restore this draft...so apparently it never posted.

but anyway...on the subject, the wedding was beautiful. i cried. i really dont know why, but it was just so real, and so unbelievable. i held hands with lindy and amelia in church a lot simply because it felt like the right thing to do at the time lol. its just so weird to me like...they are MARRIED. committed to each other. til death do they part. crazy shit that is. i could not picture myself being married for a couple of months already. but if they're happy i'm happy for them...its one of those things you wish for your exes i feel, just because you know that you cared for them once, and even though it didnt work out for you guys its nice to know that someone else cares about them like you did, and on a more severe level. i wish that for everyone though.

the reception was really nice too. everyone just got wasted and danced the night away, and we were the last ones standing by far.

...then i went home and talked to my brother and smitty while i was still drunk, found out that my brother is practically dating a girl that i was on the swim team with (she's my age...sick) who is actually a babe, and then he proceeded to tell me that the reason i dont date guys is because i end up going to their weddings a few years later. thanks andy.

ohhh and so FINALLY i'm done with school. yea. its the 21st, and my last final was today. on the bright side tho my first 2 finals were kinda rough, but i feel like if i didnt ace this one im gonna come really damn close. so thats a nice way to end the semester.

ALSOO....as if there wasnt enough going on in life, i found out who my new roommate is gonna be. i was kinda hoping i didnt get one, but this chick (from what i know by stalking her on facebook) seems really cool. she likes to party and she seems pretty down to earth so i'm actually kinda excited. i think she transferred here from marquette and shes a sophomore, so i'm kinda just hoping she has some sweet friends she wants to introduce me to.

ahh ok i'm done. but the best songs of the 90's is on in the background right now which i've watched like 6 times this week, and i dont mind at all because it brings back such good memories. this song is on right now and i love(d) it: I'm a bitch i'm a lover i'm a child i'm a mother i'm a sinner i'm a saint i do not feel ashamed i'm your hell i'm you dream i'm nothing in between you know you wouldnt want it any other way

i'll end on that.

sk8withsanta @ 2007-09-16T23:38:00

2007-09-17T04:54:50Z

R.I.P. Zoe:

God knew that you were suffering.
That the hills were hard to climb
So He gently closed your eyelids
And whispered "Peace be thine."
In tears we watched you sinking
We watched you fade away
Our hearts were surely broken
You fought so hard to stay

But when we saw you sleeping
So peaceful, free from pain
We could not wish you back
To suffer that again
It broke our hearts to lose you
But you did not go alone
For part of us went with you
The day God called you home.

September 1st 2000 - September 14th 2007.

God I miss the shit outta you.
and for all you who hated Zoe you can suck on mah ballz cuz she was the best fucking dog ever and I'll NEVER forget her. I was supposed to take care of her on Friday when I went home because she had just had surgery. She died just a few hours before I got home.

"The one best place to bury a good dog is in the heart of his master."

The last picture I took with Zoe almost a month ago.
(and no she didnt really drink and thats not what killed her u assholes)

As sick as it sounds...she's the closest thing to me that I've ever lost. person or animal. I've lost 2 aunts in my life which I guess were the next closest, but one was when I was too little to really understand, and one was someone that I hadn't seen too much, and I knew it was coming. I've never cried so much over the same situation in my life. I get choked up just thinking/talking about it. I had to tell my dad in an email because I couldnt do it on the phone because I just cried too much. Fuck I thought I missed you when I left for school...I had no fucking idea.

Just get over yourself u cry baby.

this is ridculous

2007-08-30T07:48:12Z

I will miss you when you go much more than you'll ever know
But I'll have a memory to keep you near
In my heart you will remain but it just won't be the same
I will miss a million things that make you dear
Your lovely ways make you so sweet I prayed the angels fair will keep
You're happiness so you'll be blessed just as you deserve to be
I wonder why there are so few lovely people like you
My but I will surely miss you when you go

i've been balling since the second i walked out of ang's door. over an hour ago. this isnt even real. i'm not emotionally ready for any of this.

gahhhhhhh. i'm finna miss you guys. i'm such a frickin baby.

heres to college. <3

i love milwaukee.

home is where the heart is.

2007-08-26T00:01:14Z

aint that the truth.

i leave in 6 days. 6 fricken days and i will be 1 hour away with no car.

idk why but its sooo hard for me to leave. ive been looking forward to this day for months. years even. but my heart is here in milwaukee. well mostly just with my friends.

but on the other had i have soo many good friends going to madison with me and so many more opportunities and so many things to look forward to. i wish uwm was madison so that i could still go there and live in the dorms and/or in a house but still be in milwaukee and still be with my mke friends and my friends going to madison.

its gonna be so hard i'm so emo i'll prolly cry like at least 5 times before thursday when i leave. i went to a party at my good high school friends' house who are going to uwm and i really could not believe that i was saying goodbye to these people i've seen 5 days a week for the past 4 years, and now i'll see them like once every two months. its literally frightening. you just grow so comfortable with everyone and everything ya kno. this is the biggest change thats ever happened in my life. a new chapter for me if u will, and its pretty god damn scary.

madison is gonna blow my fuckin mind tho i bet. at least i hope. i couldnt ask to be in a better situation with my life right now i have it fucking made. (if only my mke friends could teleport to me and vise versa) everything that i planned for myself since i was like 12 years old is unfolding just as i saw it. lets hope it doesnt let me down.

hope everyone is doing good at school and having fun even if ur not at school.

<3

googedy googedy goo.

2007-08-22T19:32:35Z

i leave in t minus 8 dayssssssssssssssssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

holy shit i am so fricken excited its not even funny. so excited. like....ecstatic.

i think my being super pumped kinda blocks the feelings i have about leaving. i'm gonna miss people. hardcore. granted all of my high school friends from hale that i really care anything about are going with me to madison so thats not a big deal.

but come on. i'm gonna miss...basically everyone that hangs out at angies house and everyone else thats gone away to school, or is staying in milwaukee.

its kinda sucks and as the time gets closer for me to leave i think about what i was doing 8 days ago and to imagine in that same amount of time i will be living with my friend in a room about the size of my bedroom. ri-god-damn-diculous is what that is.

idk hopefully we'll all keep in touch. i'm sure it wont be toooo bad. its just that i've had the same friends for years and not like friends that i see 2 or 3 times a week, its people that i see almost everyday and i never ever have to worry about whether or not we're gonna hang out cuz we will. thats just a given. and to just up and leave fuckin blows.

oh well u know life moves on but...

"True love is when you have to watch a friend leave, with the knowledge that you might never see them again, but you know they'll be in your mind and heart forever."

hopefully thats all true except the part where i never see them again. gahhhhhh i love the people in my life and thats the fucking end. end of story.

life gave me lemonade and i cant imagine why.

2007-08-03T06:04:46Z

ok so whenever i'm alone like...just thinking about shit i cant come to any conclusions.

gaahhhhh its so hard to explain and i just wanna write about it so dont think i'm a freak i just need to get this outta my head and see if i can make any sense of it.

so what i started thinking about tonite when i came home was all the people i saw and how it was a good day...blah blah blah normal stuff. but then i started thinking about how my life is so cookie cutter. like...obv not completely there are many many things in my life that arent perfect but thats not really what i'm getting at. like...i graduated high school, i'm going to college for 4 years or more, then i'll graduate, get a job, get married, have a kid or 2, retire, die. the end.

like i hear ppl talk about how they wanna get away...milwaukee's not the place for them, they need to travel, do something with their life etc. for example one of my cousins i kinda had a heart to heart with who is from iowa...he's like 21 and just got back from amsterdam or something like a day before we went up north. and he's traveled all of europe studying abroad and all this cool shit. and to be honest i would absloutely love to do that...but i'm afraid it would somehow conflict with my cookie cutter life. i imagine all the crazy cool people i could meet and cultures i could get to know but if i dont meet those people and dont live out their cultures then....what? nothing...i just go on doing my thing right?

the thing is tho that i would love to get out and stop being so cliche and stop following the norm and be passionate about something. i think thats my problem. i wanna do something i wanna be adventurous i wanna grow the balls to just up and hitchhike to another state, or fly overseas for a couple months just to see what else is out there, but i'm not passionate about it. the only thing i think i honestly had a passion for was softball, and i will probably never play competetively ever again in my life. i love the violin, and rugby, but i'm not passionate about either of those. i feel almost like its too late for that kinda stuff. maybe in college i'll find a club or something that i get really into. but for right now i dont even know what i'm going to school for.

ugh. its just so frusterating that i feel like i wanna change something and i wanna go out there and suprise myself with a new experience and i wanna see what else it outside of wisconsin, and the US for that matter but i dont wanna force myself to be that way. a lot of my friends are the same way as me with the whole i graduated high school, i'm going to college for 4 years or more, then i'll graduate, get a job, get married, have a kid or 2, retire, die. the end. maybe theres nothing wrong with that. maybe its ok to live to support yourself and ur family and be happy and if thats all i accomplish in life then fine.

thats why i get so damn confused because i see both kinds of people every day. i see the adventerous crazy people that are passionate about things and spend time supporting their passions whether the future for the situation seems bright or not, and i see my friends going to college and not questioning whether there is something greater than themselves out there.

but now that i think about it i used to go on those mission trips and meet so many awesome people, whether they made an strong impression on me or not so much...there are a few people i have not forgotten and that pumps me up. knowing that i met such cool people and had such great experiences and i would love to do it again...its just...doesnt seem that easy when i have to instigate these things on my own. but see that stuff was easy for me when i was all gung ho about the god thing. well actually by no means gung ho but thats another thing i've lost a lot of touch with is my faith. even tho i'm so indecisive about my religious beliefs. thats one thing i am very jealous of tho. i almost wish i had the faith that other people have. whether it be in god, buddah, any other religous figures, or something even not religious aka whatever else people can believe. (see i'm not even educated enough to know what else kinda shit u can believe in) but i envy people that can drop everything and say / pray to god and say i live for you. people that can honestly say that shit at church and mean it. they can honestly say i will love you unconditionally as a god and i will follow your commandments and i will basically put my life into your hands because i believe that you have a plan for me and i believe that as long as i have my faith in you, you will forgive me and i will go into your heaven and that is what i live for.

you have to have such a strong passion for something in order to say with all honesty that you LIVE FOR something. that is seriously so powerful to me. and i have none of that in my life. not just faith wise but with anything. politics is another thing. i'm going to a school CRAZY about politics and a very liberal school as well. a majority of my political views are conservative, but i actually cant even say that with confidence considering i dont kno shit about politics. but i really want to be able to go to school with at least a little knowledge of what my beliefs are so i can hold my own, but its so hard to talk to someone about politics without getting a biased explanation. blah...i guess what this whole thing really comes down to is just that i need to not push my emotions and thoughts. if i think one way i shouldnt force myself to see it from the other side but i was always told was a good idea. i was always told that i should try to look at both sides of the spectrum i just didnt think that i would be so concerned about the other side. i want to say i should just go with the flow, and see what happens. maybe down the road my outlook on life as a whole will change. i just dont want opportunities to pass me by while i'm just coasting thru life.

whatever my brain is about to explode. if u read this...ur a trooper. lol. no more thinking for the night. i need rest. i'm gonna be legal in 23 HOURS!!!

I WANT TO SCREAM ATOP MOUNTAINS!!!!!!!!!

2007-08-02T00:09:06Z

ok so i went to court today for my $676 retail theft ticket...which is a felony btw.

and.....i talked to the DA and he said it would be real bad to have on my record so he dropped it to a disorderly conduct ticket for like $226.

then....i went to see the judge. and after this big long lecture about how horrible it was and how at madison i better do good and blah blah he said that he would give me a court date during christmas break and i should bring back $28, do 25 hrs of community service and bring my report card.

THE END. NO FREAKIN JOKES ABOUT IT!!!

ahhh...$676 down to $28 and community service. and....nothing on my record. ohhh there is a god.

on the flip side....i still have $792 yet to dispute in the next month or so. akshrfiwyaad.

well my life is officially a joke.

2007-07-26T04:39:34Z

i have just managed to get 4 tickets worth a total of $792 in 48 hours. (oh and i have a $676 ticket to pay by the 1st as well)

and the sickest part about that? it motivates me in absoltely no way to change my life.

idk what the hell is wrong with me. i almost want to care. and i keep telling myself that you only live once so hell, get a ticket, pay it off, and pray you dont get caught next time. but thats so not right. i think i'm just afraid to admit to myself that maybe after i piss away a coulpe grand to some dicks in a badge i should learn something.

i have good hopes to have at least 2 of those tickets dropped. i'm almost too lazt to explain the situations but my tickets are distributed as follows...dont quote me on them tho:

$175 - subject intentionally consumed alcoholic beverages at below location while not being of legal age to consume such beverages.

$175 - subject intentionally and without consent ran away from officers when ordered to stop for the purpose of recieving a citation.

$189.50 - speeding in a 55 MPH zone (16-19 over)

and the real kicker....

$252.50 - operating a vehicle without carrying a liscence

i had my liscence on me....it was just in the trunk. with the booze i didnt want him to see. i guess you could say i took one for the team.

so i hoping to get the second and fourth one dropped. i didnt run from the cops. thats a joke. i was so wasted that i got carried out to the pattywagon. at what point i was supposed to be running when i couldnt even fucking walk is beyond me. and they refused to breathalize anyone, so i'm gonna try to say i wasnt drinking, which might fly as long as the police officers who busted us arent there to say otherwise. and driving without a liscence. get fucking real. murphy will deal with that one. i'm hoping he'll come through for me. otherwise i'll try to say that the city of milwaukee took it when i got my drinking ticket. might work?

the bright side to all this if there is one? none of the rents know. just the bro...why he knows? oh maybe just cuz he had to pick me up from the station considering i was on 27th n oklahoma with no car no keys no phone no money....and no shoes.

blahhhhhhhhhhhh blahhhhhhhhhhhhhh. to life. i cant wait til college. and wierdly enough i cant wait til my court dates cuz i can only get tickets dropped from here. it cant get much worse than what i got soo...may as well try to fight them.

going up north with the fam. this weekend. plan on getting wasted at least once. and prolly telling my cousins about my tickets which i'll end up regretting.

hope this makes everyone else feel better about how their summer is! :)

p.s. i was reading the weekly post secrets...and one read "almost all cops i know drink and drive" and someone responded "i was one of the few that didnt, but i never really liked the person i was when i wore a badge."

well i dont like you either.

sk8withsanta @ 2007-06-29T17:06:00

2007-06-29T22:41:30Z

well, lets start with bp sqwerd....it was awesome. i hope there will be a cubed....who am i kidding there will be....mike knows.

i burned my toe real bad in the fire and i have huge cuts and bruises that came out of nowhere....angie told me that me and kyle fell off the cooler and rolled down the hill....the hell if i kno. it rained and i was soaked all night but i got my pants back from amyleo and i am so glad.

well....why it never ends do u say? first of all backtracking i partied with a bunch of people i didnt kno on fri. but i was with crichie and reich and that was a lot of fun.

sat. was bum party and then i slept 4 like 2 hours and then went to that thing at 4 seasons and that was fun and then mon. serena and angie came over and we partied all day basically and throughout the night i saw angie, serena, steph, parpi, ryan, dan, brittny, randy, kyle, matt, bryan, and mei........and i loved it.

today we are taking a break but tomorrow....it begins again. but thanks to everyone who i saw and everyone was so much fun and i had such a great weekend...and i hope to see everyone again soon.

ovel...DUNNYNYYNNYNYNNYNY

This is the best of the three entries i remenisced about this time in past summers. Oh when we were young and care free. I wish i could say the same about summer so far this year but its not exactly all kosher. (if u can even use that word in that contex idk, but i like the way it sounds)

sooooo much dumb drama has been going on with me like the past 2 or 3 days and i'm sick of it. and its all just immaturity and ppl looking to put on an act. like seriously we are adults. ok maybe i'm not yet i'm a baby but most of my friends are adults and hell if u'd be able to tell that from the way they act. GROW UP!!!! get the fuck over yourself, stop thinking the world revolves around you. if u wanna be selfish, fine, but then dont bring down other ppl. the point of being selfish is that you only think about yourself, so if u wanna act that way do it without fucking with anybody else just because you couldnt care less about them.

ugh, the only thing that makes me feel better about this situation that i'm in is that i realized after all this and after hanging out with my closer friends today that none of this shit matters. 2 of my friends basically just told me to fuck off but in the long run in doesnt matter cuz that just shows that they were obv not that good of friends to me to begin with. i've been called a slut a tramp a whore a bitch a skank and i've been told to fuck off about 70 thousand times but i just cant let myself care. anyone, and i mean anyone that would be that mean and rude to me or call me those things is not someone i would even consider calling my friend so heres a big fuck you to them.

i love my life and my friends who care and as long as i have life and have friends i'm good to go.

<3

i wonder if...

2007-06-15T04:25:09Z

i wonder if my mom ever realizes how ridiculous, annoying, absurd, outrageous, unreasonable, irrational, unfair, demanding, irritating, aggrevating, frustrating, bothersome, and downright exasperating she is.

its sick, its annoying and i cant take it.

if i was 18 i'd pack a bag, grab a handful of change, and leave.

wait no i wouldnt, cuz i dont have the balls. grow some fucking balls. i wish i could because i need to get out of here sometimes, and i dont always wanna go to my dads. i need friends, and people who are gonna help me forget, but i wont go there, cuz i have no balls.

i literally can no longer carry on normal conversation with my mother, without one of us getting frustrated, or for the most part her telling me that i'm giving her attitude when i'm not. i dont always have the pepiest tone, but that doesnt mean i'm arguing, it doesnt mean that i have attitude, and it certainly doesnt mean i'm rude. and when you say i'm like that and i apologize, apparently i'm not sorry at all, i'm just being rude. its not all my moms fault, but she always blames me of course, so what am i to do but blame her.

no mom, not every family eats dinner together every night, not every kid does their chores every day, not every kid wants to spend the entire evening sitting at home with their parents, and not every kid kisses their parents ass 24/7. so you're wrong, dont even try to think that. and i'm not afraid to say it.

but also what not every kid does? every kid doesnt work, every kid doesnt stay home when u tell them to just because u say dont go anywhere, not every kid apologizes and means it, not every kid has time to do everything you want them to in a day, not every kid has their life on track even tho they make mistakes, not every kid only has one summer to see a bunch of people they care about before they go off to college, and every kid isnt going to madison because they worked for it, and because they wanna do something useful with their life, and they have aspirations.

if any of the above are crimes someone let me know because i must have missed something.

just get off it mom. let it go. bitch to someone else cuz i dont wanna hear it. and i especially dont wanna hear you say that you're having a graduation party for me because you have to, not because your youngest kid has just had one of the most important days of their lives and we should celebrate. god forbid i put you through that pain. you didnt know it mom but i heard that.

i really really really hope you didnt mean it, and i hope, and kinda know, you dont mean half the things you say, like how you dont want to live with me anymore, but every time i hear it a little peice of that hope, and knowing, goes away, and i pray that it all wont be lost before i leave. keep telling me that you are done letting me make u cry...well i've said that to myself for the past 5 years, and it hasnt stopped yet.

i love everyone in west allis, milwaukee, new berlin, waukesha, brookfield, and surrounding areas, but when i'm at home, move in day cant come soon enough. i could have absolutely no friends in madison besides my roommate who i know will be there for me, but as long as i dont have to see my mom every day, i'll be ok.

i want my mom to be there for me when i graduate college, and celebrate with me because she wants to. i want her to be the person at my wedding with the biggest smile on her face (well second to my husband). i want her to babysit my kids. hell i want to babysit her when she gets too old. i want to raise my kids how i want to, but every once and a while be reminded of something my mom did for me when i was young that i enjoyed, so i can bring that joy to my kids as well. and most of all someday i want to bring flowers to her grave on mothers day and her birthday, and maybe some other random days because i want to, and because i care, and because i want to be reminded that she was a wonderful person.

i have no doubt in my mind that i can get all that, its just gonna take time. time i need away, and at college, so that i can become more mature and we can communicate on a more understanding level.

til then...wish me luck with this summer.

Stop revolving around other people. Nobody revolves around you.

2007-06-14T05:17:22Z

The world will never stop for you, or anybody, no matter how bad your day was. Let things be. Roll with the punches. If someone doesn't answer a phone call, it's because whatever they are doing is worth more to them than the person who is calling.

I got to thinking tonight, idk why. i never really get in those weird emo moods i used to get into all the time that made me wanna remenisce, and look up lyrics to explain my life, and use them with art, and eventually cry. i get halfway there...but never really get into it, and its weird, but i dont think in any way really bad. that just means maybe i'm more mature and more emotionally stable i hope.

I graduated last night. it really feels weird saying that. speaking of emotionally stable, i only really got choked up once, and that was during our senior class president's speech when she talked about all the fun times we had had this past year. other than that i didnt shed a tear. the kid i sat next to was an absolute savior for me. first off, we walked into the gym in pairs, and i think we might have been the only two people that walked in hand in hand. i'm not even good friends with him, but us holding hands on the way in, and it just being something that we both found appropriate, really makes me happy. its the little things, ya kno? not to mention the kid had something to say about every person that walked across the stage, and not in an annoying way at all, but 100% sarcastic and completely hilarious. oh, and hey, i cried more at last years graduation.

summer is officially in full boar, and last night was the kick off. great weather, great people, great drinks. thats all there was to it. except there had to be drama which i took with a grain of salt since i wasnt involved, and moved on.

i really hope that this graduation thing brings a maturity about my school friends. people need to understand that shit is gonna happen, shit will happen, especially when ur drunk, and you need to take responsibility. last night some girl who was drunk as fuq that has a bf kissed another guy who's gf was right there, and encouraging it. the bf finds out and the drunk girl freaked out and cried for literally 3 hours. no joke, sobbing. she stopped once or twice, but only to puke and start again. everyone of course pointed fingers and said it was everyone else's fault but their own. i dont wanna deal with that all summer. to be honest, grow up, grow some balls, and take reponsibility. if u cant handle ur alcohol, dont drink, and if u dont want that shit to happen, dont put urself in that position in the first place. its that simple.

bahhhh wtf tho. i'm so care free. i dont wanna be brought down by this drama. i was good n drunk before i sat in a bathroom with a bawling drunk girl for 45 minutes trying to get her to calm down. i'm gonna do what i want when i want and with who i want, and if something bad happens dont feel bad for me by any means, kick me in the ass and tell me i'm an idiot. i'll figure it out, i'll take responsibility, and i'll deal with the consequences because thats just what you do so that things dont get blown out of proportion. man up...just man the fuck up.

such a long entry, but i really just needed to get some things off my chest. and to be honest, i feel a lot better!

scrappy touching errrthang

2007-06-09T18:06:30Z

summer is here!!!! my last class was yesterday!!!

i wish i could be more excited. but oh yea. i can't.

maybe thats because i have a $676 ticket to pay, i've been on house arrest from td for the past week, and last night was the first night she let me out and i screwed it up. long long story i dont even care to share cuz i'm lazy, but i yelled at her hxc style last night and i was so drunk and i dont even remember what i said to her. i almost feel bad but i have a feeling that the points i made were relevant. i just hope she doesnt know i was drunk.

on the bright side i coulda gotten a drinking ticket last night, 3 of my friends did, and it was complete chance that i was inside the bathroom when the cops came to the bowling alley i was at. and i pieced the fuck outta there asap so i got so lucky. i feel horribly bad about the other 3 its sick, it shoulda, coulda, woulda been me.

but it wasnt, thank god.

hope everyone else's summers are going better than mine so far. :)

And I think it's fly when girls stop by for the summer, for the summer

2007-06-03T18:23:51Z

Oh i can smell summer. everyone else's summers started weeks ago. i graduate in 9 days.

did i mention i graduate in 9 days. finally.

these last few weeks, and especially this coming week have been and will be an emotional roller coaster. softball ended for me and that was like one of the first "lasts" that i had to deal with. to be honest i cried so much. everything about it makes me so sad that i'll never get to play again competetively. maybe i'll play like intermural or whatever next year if i can but it wont be the same. its so so hard to know that i cant do something that i truely love doing anymore. i never realized how much this could suck. i've been playing baseball and softball since i was 7 and all of a sudden its done. the only upside to this year was that it was really my best year. i played my best/got the best stats and i played with the best people, and to top it off i was named 1st team all conference for outfield. at least i went out with a bang if u wanna put it that way.

than i had my last orchestra concert. this one i wasnt as sad about because i really wanna play next year and i think i'm going to so i dont have much to be too sad about. but its just another one of the things that make me realize that a culmination of 4 years of my life is coming to an end.

but this week will be full of good lasts. like taking my last exam, and taking my last test, and being in a classroom for the last time. the ones that make me happy more than anything.

we get our yearbooks on monday and i am gonna be such a baby i bet when i sign them and i'm gonna be so sappy and cry about everything. sometimes i wish i wasnt so damn emo.

graduation is gonna be so tough. i cried at last years graduation, and it wasnt even my class that was leaving.

wellllllllllllllllz

2007-05-11T17:43:55Z

wellz fargo?

idk thats just what i thought of.

oh i'm so happy angie jo spors is back in the livejournal realm. bliss is it not?

anyways summer is nearing and i'm getting so excited. this day off today is just teasing me a little.

prom is tomorrow. i'm kinda excited but not as much as last year. my date...eh, just a friend, i dont even know if i would rather go with him or alone. lol, but he's funny as hell so i'm hoping he'll make it a good time. my dress...also eh, cuz its short and strapless and i have scraped knees and a sick tan line/burn line. I dont even know what any of my other plans are either. Oh, and i forgot to get flowers, so i'm prolly gonna go to like pick n save and see if i can get a boutenier or whatever that is. and i have an old garder thats conveniently almnost the same color as my dress that i'm gonna give him. ha. he'll never know. cept it has a heart charm on it and i hope he doesnt get any ideas. as for after prom...yea thats up in the air too.

alwesakidshgfa;klsgh gahh. idk

what excites me right now is going to a bunch of places to get shit for a costume party at ang's. i love doing shit like this. and i'm gonna take touch down's car and waste her gas not mine.

p.s. only taking her car because she's turkey hunting. lol.

butch. it runs in the family.

this peice of technological mind frier.

2007-05-06T03:34:09Z

^^^oh yea thats how i referred to this baby 2 years ago.

ohh jeez how time flies. i have an AP test on Tuesday. Stats. what a fucking joke. i'm pretty sure my mom would have a cow if she knew she was dropping $73, not so that i can pass this test and get college credit, but more likely because now i wont have to take the final exam.

Oh, and that goes for AP bio in a week too.

Cinco de mayo today, and i really dont feel like parting. i kinda just wanna chill. i kinda just wished my phone screen worked so that i could find out who texted me.

i'm getting so excited for summer. :)

mmmmhm

2007-04-18T03:33:30Z

great day for me today

1. lost our softball game.
2. allison told me she doenst wanna room with me anymore
3. apparently rumor has it allison and i had sex??!! yep. prolly.
4. i'm really tired and lazy and i have a shit ton of dumb homework
5. just in an exrtremely irritable mood.

ugh. fuck this.

oh and by the way

2007-03-30T02:15:46Z

one year ago was my court date for my ticket.

lets not do that one again hmmm???

Tell them faggot ass niggas to wrap they lips around my dick.

2007-03-30T02:12:57Z

This is the first survey I took when I put in my first lj entry in 2004. So I’m finna put my new answers in caps and my old answers are the first ones. i might be doing this purely for my own entertainment but it not then i hop you enjoy.

HAVE YOU EVER
1. Kissed your cousin: nope/HELL NAW
2. Ran away: yes, but never overnite/YEA
3. Pictured your crush naked: sure/GUILTY
4. skipped school: yeah/OH YEA. SENIOR SKIP DAY MONDAY!
5. Broken someone's heart: I hope not/YEA I THINK SO
6. Been in love: yeah once/THOUGHT I WAS BUT I NEVER WAS, IT WAS A FRIEND LOVE
7. Cried when someone died? yes/YEA
8. Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have: yeah, sadly/ALL THE TIME
9. Broken a bone: my wrist and finger/STILL THE SAME
10. Done something embarrasing: oh definitely/ALL THE TIME
11. Done a drug: sadly/MHMM
12. Cried in school: yeah/NOT RECENTLY

WHICH IS BETTER
13. Coke or Pepsi: pepsi/PEPSI
14. Sprite or 7UP: sprite/SPRITE
15. Girls or Guys: guys/GUYS MOST OF THE TIME
16. Flowers or Candy: hmm….i think flowers say ur sorry, candy says I love u…..so prolly candy/FLOWERS RIGHT NOW CUZ ITS LENT AND I CANT HAVE CANDY
17. Scruffy or Clean shaven: clean/CLEAN
18. Blondes or Brunettes: both/BRUNETTE GIRLS, BLONDE BOYS
19. Bitchy or Slutty: neither/WELL I'M BITCHY
20. Tall or Short: either/TALL
21. Pants or Shorts: Pants/PANTS
22. Night or Day: Night/NIGHT

WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX
23. What do you notice first: idk, the way they carry themselves, smile/SMILE, GENERAL LOOKS
24. Last person you slow danced with: danny/BRYAN?
25. Worst Question To Ask: i dunno/WHATS WRONG

THE LAST TIME YOU...
26. Showered: about 15 min. ago/YEATERDAY NIGHT
27. stepped outside: last night/A COUPLE MIN AGO
28. Had Sex: never/LAST WEEKEND. LOL

RANDOM
29. Romantic memory: with angie at wilson…lol/ONE BUT IDK HOW TO EXPLAIN
30. Your Good Luck Charm: don’t have one/DONT HAVE ONE
31. Person You Hate Most? Amanda malmquist….lol/S,DS AND KIRSTEN FROEHLICH
32. Best Thing That Has Happened: idk/IDK
33. On your desk: a lot of my moms crap/SAME
34. Picture on your desktop: a cool map of the worldSOME DESIGN
35. Color: orange/SAME
36. Movie: there are many/BLOW, BILLY MAD, DUMB N DUMBER AND MANY MORE
37. Artist: too many/I LIKE EVERYTHING
38. Cars: bmw z4…..i also despise ford taurus and exports/SATURN IONS!
39. Ice Cream: grasshopper pie/SAME
40. Season: summer/SAME
41. Breakfast Food: omelette/EGG HAM N CHEESE MCMUFFIN

WHO
42. Makes you laugh the most: a lot of ppl/SAME
43. Makes you smile: a lot of ppl/SAME
44. Can make you feel better no matter what: my friends/SAME
45. Has A Crush On You: prolly nobody/MIKE S
46. Do You Have A Crush On Someone: eh, kinda/I DO
47. Who Has it easier? Girls or Guys?: guys/GUYS I THINK
48. Gives you A Funny Feeling When You See Them: used to be a certain someone, but not so much anymore/NOT REALLY ANYONE

DO YOU EVER
49. Sit by the phone waiting for a phone call all night: on occasion/NOT ANYONE IN PARTICULAR
50. Save MSN conversations: not usually, except for a good laugh/SAME
51. Save E-mails: if they have pictures or are important/SAME
52. Forward secret E-mails: never/NOOO
53. Wish you were someone else: all the time/SOMETIMES BUT NOT A LOT
54. Wish you were a member of the opposite sex: sometimes/YEA SO I COULD JACK OFF LOL
55. Wear perfume: body spray?/READY AND 8
56. Kiss: yes/YEA
57. Cuddle: yes/YEA
58. Go online for longer than eight hours at a time: not quite/NOPE
HAVE YOU EVER
59. Fallen for your best friend?: yes/YEA
60. made out with JUST a friend?: yes/OH GOD PLEASE
61. Kissed two people in the same day?: yeah/MHMM
62. Had sex with two different people in the same day?:nada/NOPE
63. Been rejected: yeah/YES
64. Been in love?: close to it/FRIENDLY LOVE
65. Been in lust?: yes/OH YEA
66. Used someone?: i hope not/YEA
67. Been used?: most likely/PROLLY
68. Cheated on someone?: nope/YEP :(
69. Been cheated on?: I hope not/NOT THAT I KNOW OF
70. Been kissed?: yes/YES
71. Done something you regret?: of course/NO REGRETS.

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
72. You touched?: my dog/ANG
73. You talked to?: on the phone…..angie, in person my bro/ANG N SERENA
74. You hugged?: ryan/ERIC
75. you instant messaged?: dani/CURTIS
76. You kissed?: dylan/JAKE
77. You yelled at?: cant remember/WHO KNOWS
78. You thought about?: idk, lots of ppl/JAKE FROM THE LAST QUESTION
79. Who text messaged you?: lauren/AUSTIN
80. Who broke your heart?: idk/JAKE
81. Who told you they loved you?: angie/AL

DO YOU...
82. Color your hair?: used to have highlights, and now its dyed back really close to my natural color/NOT RECENTLY
83. Have tattoos?: no/NOPE
84. Have piercings?: yes/YEA
85. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: yeah/NOPE
86. Own a webcam?: nope/NO
87. Own a thong?: yes/YEA DONT WEAR THEM EVER
88. Ever get off the damn computer?: yeha, I’m not on as much as I used to be/YEA
89. Sprechen Sie Deutsch?: no/NO
90. Habla espanol?: si/SI
91. Quack?: nah/WHAT?

HAVE YOU / DO YOU / ARE YOU...
92. Stolen anything?: yea, when I was little/I DO I DO SRY
93. Smoke?: once, don’t like it/WEEEED
94. Schizophrenic?:nope/NOPE
95. Obsessive?: probably./A LIL
96. Compulsive?: probably./A LIL
97. Obsessive compulsive?: yes, about brushing my hair when its down, I hate it all static and snarly/SAME KINDA
98. Panic?: every once in a while/SOMETIMES
99. Anxious?: all the time/YEA
100. Depressed?: sometimes/ NOT A LOT

Its interesting to see what has changed and what hasnt. huh. well...spring break is just around the corner, only 3 more school days!!!!

you find out who your friends are

2007-03-27T00:01:45Z

ahh...country is so good sometimes.

i love love love days like today when its so nice, and you can go out and walk the dog and actually enjoy it, with no shoes no shoes no shoes, or sit on the patio, and listen to music.

most importantly i love being able to ride in my car with the windows down cranking and singing really corny music sung by girls like ashley simpson avril lavigne and jessica simpson, and wear sunglasses, and stick my bare foot out the window.

ahh i'm gonna love summer. and it looks like the dirty crew will be hanging out more often now that this weather is here. MONEY!

annnnnd. lindys post reminded me of mikes house which i am sooo excited for.
just an fyi. call me crazy but i'm skipping a trip to alabama for a week with my best friend to do this and i have absolutely no doubt that it will be worth it. i gotta have love for my ladies ya know.

please please please let this weather stay.

oh remeniscing

2007-03-22T06:12:13Z

why is toni dunn a beast. i think someone dunked her in the bitch tank.

haha thats how my entry on march 20th started out 2 years ago.
last year, i was thinking that x28937289360.

so....on the bright side it looks like at this time of the month, this year is looking the best for me so far. not nearly as many complaints as i've had the past two years.

Today andy dunn asked me if it'd be cool if my mom moved out to a condo or house or an apt til she finds one of those at the beginning of summer, and he said him and some friends might rent out our house so my mom doesnt have to worry about selling right away before she gets out of here. then he said i could live here til i went to college and i could keep my stuff here for when i came home on breaks and weekends. soooo basically i'd be spending the summer living with my brother. now as shitty as that may sound since he's a bitch, hes heavensent compared to touch down.

ohhh andy dunn please please please do not be teasing me with these thoughts.

basically i'd get a taste of living partially on my own, but just a taste since i'll have family close by. aaannnd, living with a bunch of guys that are over 21 might gimme a lil preview/breaking in for partying next year i'm thinking.

oh the thought of it seems so unreal and i hope to god its not.

how is everyone? spring break at mikes is nearing. soooo excited!!

oh shit

2007-03-03T23:10:01Z

Nothing lasts forever...

so live it up
DRINK IT DOWN
laugh it off
AVOID THE BULLSHIT
take chances
AND NEVER HAVE REGRETS
because at one point,
EVERYTHING YOU DID
was exactly what you wanted.

oh i'll just keep telling myself that. but what if it was never really what you wanted? then is it okay to regret something? i've ALWAYS said i'd NEVER regret anything i did but this one is borderline. maybe its not a regret as much as i just wish it hadnt happened. oooooh fuck i really got myself into it this time.

other than that...touch down is in florida right now, and i'm gonna keep taking advantage of that thank you.

gonna have to take a deep breath when i blow your mind.

2007-02-23T03:28:34Z

I have the best weekend planned...i am literally so excited.

friday...

HALE A PALOOZA
DANCE CLUB?
KATES HOUSE?
STAYING OVERNIGHT THERE?

saturday...

GETTING TICKETS FOR OPENING DAY
DRIVING TO MAD TOWN!
PARTYING OBV
STAYING OVERNIGHT THERE

sunday...

RECOVERING FROM SATURDAY, DRIVING BACK TO STALLIS
GOING TO MY FRIEND MATTS HOUSE
PARTYING A HELL OF A LOT MORE
STAYING OVERNIGHT THERE

monday...

NO SCHOOL!!!!
SLEEPING IN AND HANGING OUT WITH FUN PEOPLE

"If I live to be a hundred And never see the seven wonders That'll be alright If I don't make it to the big leagues If I never win a Grammy I'm gonna be just fine Cause I know exactly who I am"